Suffering
If love is suffering then may I suffer for all time
for I cannot live without my love,
Time waits for no man but I will wait for you

Love me

Love me is what I ask of you
lest my days be swathed in winter hue
lest the sun no longer burn so bright
that the day should become like night

For love not returned
would leave me scarred and leave
me burned, leave me desperate
torn apart, a shell with just a broken heart

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I walk alone in the cold of the night
reflecting the pleasures of your love for me that
soon will die

for how could you love me, an adorer who
can give so little

the smell of embers in the cold october air fills my senses,
like the fire in my heart for you

I love and need you but I know I cannot
give you what you need

Everytime

Every time you are away, my summer turns to darkest day, the joy I feel when i'm with you , is frozen, swathed in winter hue, this distance between us, time apart, leaves me hollow of soul and heavy of heart

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Forgive me for the things i've done, the things that cannot be undone, if ever I have been unkind, I hope forgiveness you will find

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Like an assassin you crept into my mind, through corridors of my longing, I had slept too long in the chambers of my ignorance, alone and unaware, then you awakened me, your kisses of velvet, your spirit enraptured me, my heart now yours to hold

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My love is all that I am not, the things my maker hath forgot, the things I strive and want to be, these things are all possessed by She, yet despite my flaws she does love me for what I am and strive to be , My Princess, Goddess, Love of my life, to make you mine, my loving wife  

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We ran through fields of heaven untouched by man and embraced as angels have, we kissed as if tommorow where just a dream to be shattered

The Fear

The fear is fading with the anticipation of good times to come, i only wish i could undo the things i have done wrong , if ever i have been unkind i pray that you can leave it behind, i have hurt noone more than i have hurt myself, I seek forgiveness in your eyes for the parts of me that i despise

Morning Sun

The pain I would endure for you
the agonies I would go through
all else I would forsake
all punishments I would take
for you have become my morning sun
my love, my life, my heart , the one

Blessed

Blessed be the man who his very own he can call you, how I wish to be that man , to hold your heart tight in my hands, to be the one you hold at night, to awake with you at morning light. How I long for you

For My Goddess

My time away from you a torment so bleak,
to make me wish away my week

as a blind man who cannot find his way,
who cannot see in night nor day
i am lost without you.
i long to gaze upon your face, your beauty so intense as to soften the
hardest of hearts , to bring tears to thine face when we are apart

oh how natures fruits doth betray the torment inside my heart,
though brightly summers sun may shine it doth not in this
heart of mine

Prose

You would tell me how im not alone how im not the only one who feels this way, pray do tell why i feel so alone now, not a soul to listen, not one soul who understands, on deaf ears words are wasted as a tongue that cannot speak, my cries were silenced, only my mind speaks but oh how it speaks, more like a scream than a whisper yet only i can hear it, the sullen drone that keeps me awake at night like a maleficent curse, an evil spirit, tapping away in my head

Cursed

My writings they express the feelings that my lips cannot, why my words remain captive at the time when it matters the most, wishing for you to be mine, but you are not, now instead i cry alone in the dark whilst my life plays its cursed tragic tune, i want you, i love you, i would do anything for you, why could my lips, my actions not convey this

For my Princess

How I wish above all things to be your angel on cankered wings,though my heart may be damaged and my head may be ill I shalt pray that you may love me still, Please believe me it is true,when I say that I love you, I want to take your pain so that you no longer have to feel it,want to know everything there is to know about you,You are everything to me

Prose about Depression

Depression eats at my mind like a canker in a rose, makes me wonder who i am, this monster that you see well this clearly is not me, those things i said, the way i was i cannot excuse, but let me explain, that that was not me but my illness

Broken heart

Broken of heart happiness torn apart
punished for a crime i did never commit 
scared of myself, all I wanted was you

Lighthouse

You built your lighthouse by the sea , without a word said don't bother me, set me free. From your lighthouse I can see that you no longer care for me. I want you to know , I think I should go. 
There's no way out that I can see, I'll let the waves take me

A Fog

Like a fog through which I cannot see, your voice it calls to me. When I see your face, like loves first embrace your beauty brings a tear to my eye. And I long for you, no one else will do I only want you

Enwreathed

Hold me close my love, I long to feel your embrace so divine
to feel your arms around me, your silken caress.
Your beauty holds me spellbound in my infatuation 
imprisoned in my longing, a slave to my emotion I long to be with you

Surrender to my kisses as I will to you , 
all I want is you my love,
hold me close to you , pull me near
all I long for is you my dear
wanting, feeling your lips touch mine,
we embrace under ebon sky,
impassioned in the nights dark romance, 
enwreathed in our moonlit embrace ,
I pray this will never end

My beauty and the lake

Blessed by ebon slumber I kiss you goodbye, your voice just a memory now,my angel lies lifeless in my arms, goodbye my love I long to join you and soon I will.
As I walk towards the lake with her cold dead body in my arms the waters draw me in. 
I weep the tears of a love lost, we will be together soon my beauty

Alone

I wanted to feel alive, all I felt was empty 
wanting to be gone, tired of hanging on
I wish you could have know, I wish I could have told you
would you have pushed me away or asked me to stay?
now the time has gone, no longer can I hold on
these emotions restrained , causing this pain
no one was there to listen.

Despair

Wept in disconsolate despair, my tears they fall for you, an empty space where once you lay. Like blood on snow your memory has stained my mind, broken by emptiness,frozen by fear I can only watch as events unfold around me

Beauty

Your beauty tells stories of deepest despair
i long to lie there, where angels have wept
and beauty has slept seduce me with your velvet 
embrace, awaken me from my cadaverous state
In darkest embrace her beauty melted my restraint, under the cloak of night, resplendent in dark beauty she bewitched my heart.My celestial beauty how I long for you, to bathe you in my kisses and entwine you in my arms.
My desire lashes at me like tongues of the wind,intoxicated by you, like a ghost that haunts me I cannot shake you from my mind.

Entwined

Entwined in passionate embrace I burn with passion for you,
consumed by desire I am without reserve, without excuse
your embrace so divine, I am yours to do as you will
I only long for you

Like a storm in the night

Like a storm in the night takes flight
like shattered bliss, an autumn mist
a torment I can not resist, I long for you
and for your kiss

Fears

Would it hurt me to know my feelings not returned
stop me from getting burned 
all i want is you now
im so afraid , dont know what to say
take me to a good place
I want to hold you so tight through the day and the night,
please dont hurt me,
and when I cry out nooone hears, take away all of my fears

Sorrow

You have no time for me now , i remember once when you did 
your indifference is slowly killing me
the inconsolable loneliness of unrequited emotion tearing at me
condemned by my longing, im already dead, my body just does not know it

Betrayal

In misanthropic gaze
embrace drips with nefarious intent
proclaimed in faustian verse
like a tragic euphony
betrayal on your lips

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Thy eloquent beauty do you ever think of me?
of times past when your feelings flowed so free
when I was all that mattered to you
like a moth drawn to the flame I cannot pull myself away
I would give up everything for you
Take this longing from me

On the edge

My will is broken, scared of myself
scared to be alone , of morbid consequence
punished by feelings, closer to the edge
Drained by exhaustion , strangled by doubt
my mind a barren wasteland, 
alone and isolated in my personal hell.

Unrequited

All i long for is you, agonized by your memory
i close my eyes but all i see is your face , 
for you i would give anything, my desire consumes me
my emotions torment me, afraid and alone i break down 
no one can help me now

Desolate

Desolation so bleak, so mournful, my dark beauty i mourn the loss of your embrace,tears run down my cheeks like rivers,darkness surrounds me, i long only for one last kiss - 
Together in our desolation we mourn that which we can never know, your tears fall like splintered glass as we are locked in our deathlike embrace 
Surrender yourself to thine kisses, as i surrender myself to you, i need you , you haunt me, embrace me, to me there is only you 
I am intoxicated by you , my heart doth ache for your warm embrace, yearns for you, only you can take away my pain -

Indifferent

Your cold indifference cuts me like a razor, will I have the strength to let you go, I know I have to but I dont know if I can, your company a callous prize, a cruel punishment, your beauty torments me
I need more than you can give 
My words mean nothing to you, my declarations just an empty reminder of feelings long gone, you stare dispassionately on as my heart breaks remembering happier times, I pray that I can capture back your affections but inside im dying , i realise its too late -

Anger

As i gaze upon the note once wrote
and I feel my tempers rise
an escalation of passion now turned into rage
a maleficent exchange
where once was obeisance
has now turned to hate

My beauty lies dead

In mine most desolate hour, rain falleth from blackened sky,
thine opulent beauty ,such tragedy befell one as radiant as you,your name on my lips,your voice i will never hear, I long for you and your caress macabre.
Memories of the bleeding summer sky warned of tragedy to come, scarred by the events of that day, lonelyness to burn me like a thousand lacerations,why so cursed must I be that you would not take me. your beauty will make the angels weep

Strigoi

A nocturnal beauty Framed by candlelight, 
her cadaverous pallor, seduction so macabre.
The hunger for flesh seen through vitreous eyes. She 
clasped me so tight , her cold cruel lips on my skin.
With her caress my life had ended and begun

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Mine heart betrayeth me, for that which hath mattered doth hold no meaning, only the hope that doth flicker within, like a desert that longeth for the rain I wait for you. I pray I shall soon gaze upon your beauty divine, feel your warm arms around me, your soft kisses upon my skin. You are everything to me.

Depression

It burns at me like fire, the shame will never go
afraid to let you in, afraid that you will know
I am broken, dead inside, nothing you'll understand
my affliction will tear us apart

Fervor

Let me show you a love of an intensity and fervor the likes of which you hath never before seen. To long hath I relate these thoughts in soliloquy. Let tonight be filled with ardent love and dark romance, let me lay in your arms,close to you feeling your warmth, let me be yours.

Suzanne

wrap me in your deepest desire,your fondest given kiss, caress me soft and hold me near,entangled in your bliss, to feel your lips upon my skin,to give myself to you, a feeling I have no control a bliss I give in to. Without you with me , tonight doth seem like winter,the fruits of summer fade, the roses doth wilt, the sun doth cower like a child, I do so long for you

Longing

Your eyes stained by silver rivers i console you in my arms , do not weep my beautiful princess I will never let you down. My tears only flow for you, hold me near to you and I will never let anyone hurt you again.
My heart it burns for you , my intolerable pain that only you can ease, my eyes full of sorrow that only you can end, I would give everything for you.

Let tonight not be filled with dark tragedies but with the rapture of our embrace, the words upon your lips, the smile upon your face